Internal Workings

Posted on 30 Mar 2014 @ 9:43am by Lieutenant Asahi Kita

456 words; about a 2 minute read

Officer's Log - Stardate - Don't they have automatic timestamps for these things...

Five days ago, we were launching ourselves back into space, ready to head off to Deep Space Nine to test our refits.

Four days ago, between my workshift and a late meal, I received word from my mother (via Rear Admiral Killick, of course), that it had been determined my father had Iresine Syndrome. Killick wasn't entirely sure what that was exactly, and I'm not getting any straight answers out of mom. I just know dear ol' dad's been in a coma for a few days, and it's not getting any better. They have to be giving him things by now, especially since there's a proper diagnosis.

I'd have to get Luka to ramble about that at me so I know what's going on, but I haven't contacted the Fargo since we left Earth. He mentioned something about a transfer, but I must not have been paying enough attention...

Everything's a blur after that. I must have buried myself deep into the recesses of Main Engineering and my work, completely forgetting any social obligations around me. It wasn't until I was called down to the briefing that I realized how many days had passed and how much time I've really been spending down here.

I've probably made a bad impression on any of the new engineers. An overbearing micromanager who can't help but dip his hands into everything is no way a chief should be running things.

The problem is, I just don't know how else to be in charge of anything. Most of the chief engineers I've worked under tended to be exactly the same way. This is the first real chance I've been given to prove myself, and I feel like I'm doing it wrong. Is this something I ask the Commodore for guidance on? Or do I talk to Holliday about this? I'd speak with Admiral Killick, but the woman's insistent that I'm just like my father and should get through it just fine.

That's exactly who I don't want to be. I want to be able to pave my own way, find my own type of departmental balance. If I can get myself to the happy medium where I can just let go of certain projects while at the same time making sure certain engineers aren't at each others' throats, it might be better for everyone.

Which means I have to show to those under my departmental command that I do have trust in them, instead of just telling them I do.

... I can't even talk in a log without having it all come back to work, can I?

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