Personal Log 022

Posted on 27 Nov 2013 @ 12:21pm by Captain Jonathan Holliday

343 words; about a 2 minute read

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First Officer's Log, Commander Jonathan Holliday reporting for duty.

It has been some time since my last log entry...as my medical logs will show I was unfit for duty for several days prior to this recording. I...cannot believe what has happened...the pain I have caused, the damage I have done, the suffering I have inflicted for utterly no reason whatsoever.

My duty was to protect this ship and this crew, but instead I allowed myself to be captured by the enemy and become an instrument of their vengeance. It's just like a repeat of my time during the Dominion War....years of Starfleet service, but when it came down to it I was still the brash young Ensign who got his ass kicked by a vastly superior enemy that I had no business going anywhere near in hand-to-hand contact.

And I paid the price for it.

The doc tells me that 98% of the implants have either been disabled or removed from my system, and the last couple should shut down in the next few days...but I can still feel them. In the back of my mind, or when I close my eyes I can hear their voices, feel their influence, calling out to me like a bird calling to it's chicks.

I don't know what this all means...I need to keep busy, return to duty, get back on the Bridge, but nothing I seem to do makes a difference. No doubt the Captain will try to get me to submit to a counselling course but what help will that do? I failed, people got hurt, and I'm lucky to be alive - no amount of sugar coating is going to do a goddamn THING ABOUT THAT!!!!

*smashing sound followed by panting...*

I...I have no business being anywhere near any of these people...I nearly got them all killed and I have no defence for it....I.....dammit I need to get back to work.


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CDR Jonathan Holliday
Executive Officer
USS Galileo

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