Before I Sleep

Posted on 31 May 2013 @ 6:09pm by Petty Officer 1st Class Victarion Jaqen

384 words; about a 2 minute read

You never think that Starfleet had this much paperwork. Paperwork. I like that word. It's of course completely useless in reality, we use padds and electronic prints, not paper. But it is a nice word. Like red tape. Even if I don't know exactly how that originated. I speak fluent English as well, something I taught myself before I even applied to Starfleet. And these words are crowded in that language.

But anyway. Starfleet is full of reports. Reports for this, reports for that. And my job is to be a bit of a filter. I go through them all, if the security clearance let me. I write shorter versions for the Captain, if she needs it. I make sure her own reports are sent where they need to go. I chase people if their reports are late. I do all of those things. It's what I enjoy. I like reading and writing. I take pleasure in doing a good job, because administrative things are a rare skill with my species. Very rare.

Don't think I am boring just because I enjoy my work. Truth is, I dislike things so working helps. I dislike the crowded feel of my quarters. I am of such a rank that I share and no matter how nice people are, I dislike being forced to show the sides of me that are more private. Spiritually, I mean. Because I was brought up on faith and despite being here, I still carry it closely. I like reading, and I prefer reading on my own. Privacy to say my thoughts aloud, to shape the words of poetry with my lips as well. That matters to me. A lot.

And there are things I enjoy to do with others. Swimming, for instance, is far more fun with others around. And there's sex too, but I try and be good. I try so hard to be good because I don't want to fall into the stereotype. I like affection. I like being close to people. But I don't want them to think that just because I like being pressed close to a handsome man that it makes me less of a man myself.

Well. I better sign off for now. If only, because I want to get some sleep. Computer, end log.

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