An Ironic Liberation
Posted on 31 Oct 2024 @ 11:58pm by Petty Officer 3rd Class Yasmin Aquino
391 words; about a 2 minute read
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Computer: begin personal log.
I have been more busy over the past few days than I have ever been on a previous ship. Coming from a crew of hundreds, we are now down to around sixty or so. My department is really small, and there is a lot of ship for a not a lot of crew. We have yet to go on a first mission, which I hope will be an amazing trip. Of course, there is an element of risk being on the frontier of Federation space. However, my only hope is that I can do my brother Ryan proud.
One thing that I realized, which no one spoke about when I enlisted, was the absolute separation from my family. It took me six months to get to Regula I. I seriously thought about it, say, half way in. It would take me at least a year to return to my family should anything happen to them. If my Dad died today, his body would be dead and gone for months by the time I got there. If I found out that Brandon was having another kid, odds are by the time I got there, I would miss the entire pregnancy.
Honestly, that is what I cannot get used to. I'd love to be able to be able to get an emergency furlough and be with them should anything happen. However, that is not going to happen. I'm stuck out here, no matter the circumstances. I doubt that I could walk before the Captain, ask to head to the nearest station, and spend six months waiting for a ship for another six month (if I'm lucky) journey.
In that respect, it is kind of liberating. It allows me to be able to focus on my job. It is ironic. If I know that there is nothing I can do for a situation, I am free to keep focus on my job. I seriously doubt I can get the Chaplain to help me with any of that. Then again, I have a ship to take care of and a crew to support. It would be very selfish of me to only focus on my family when I am surrounded by everyone else who also feels alone. Thank God I don't have a husband and kids.
Computer: End log.
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