Personal Log 004

Posted on 28 Jun 2012 @ 2:57am by Lieutenant Lilou Zaren

262 words; about a 1 minute read

"Cant say much. Mama, Papa, if you get this, it means that something's gone terribly wrong and I'm gone. In which case... I'm sorry I've been so bad about keeping in touch. Something happened to me on the Algonquin and I haven't really been the same since. It's not something I want you to worry about. I just want to explain- it wasn't you. It was- me dealing with who I'd become. Was becoming. Wasn't anymore. Something like that. I just... You did your best by me. I don't want to disappear without having told you.

I had a lot of questions. Still do. About why things are the way they are. Why i am the way i am and what is it about me that makes me so... Different. But I think. Hope. There was a good reason for me not to know those answers. Maybe they weren't important. Maybe you were protecting me from... Spirits know what.

There's a lot I can't say about what's happening right now. The circumstances of my death. But I want you to know I did my best. Will have done. I won't go down without a fight. Hopefully I'll find a way to take some of them with me. If it comes to that. The XO seems to have a plan. Spirits only know if it'll be enough. I love you. Truly. More than I love myself or anything else in the world. Except maybe this ship. You should have seen this ship. She was a beauty...

Back to work. Be safe and well!"

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