Barel Personal Log #1

Posted on 31 Aug 2013 @ 12:53am by Tarishiana Barel

730 words; about a 4 minute read

"Begin recording...."


"There are a few things I just need to say...Even if no one ever hears them...They need to be out in the universe somewhere...

"First I have to admit how great it feels to be home. The Galileo may just be a ship I served on once, but it is the one place in the last ten years that I have felt like I belong. I have no doubt most of that has to do with Markum.

"I can't even been to explain how much I missed him. It is almost funny to think that when I left to head back to Betazed I had known him for less then a month. Don't take that to believe that I think that amount of time you know someone matters. I had known Lestian for my entire life and had never felt like I do for Markum. I love him more then I ever thought possible.

"It is that very reason that I need to get this off my check. My love for Markum has caused many changes in my life over the last eight month. That isn't limited to the life that I now have growing inside me. I can't wait to meet my child and I can't wait to raise him or her with Markum...But...

"My child and my Imzadi are the reason that I can never go home. My mother in all of her infinite wisdom gave me an ultimatum. She had originally thought that my child was Lestian's and that she would, once and for all, get what she wanted. Her daughter married off to one of the most prestigious families in her social circle.


"She never listened to me. All the time I tried to tell her that I wasn't going to marry Lestian. That this child wasn't his and that I was going to marry a human. It wasn't until Lestian arrived, at my request, and confirmed my story that she finally listened.

"Slight change of subject. Lestian is getting married and I couldn't be happier for him. Apparently he met a Bajoran scientist who was sent as a mission advisor on his ship. I met her actually when he came home to announce his engagement to his parents. She is a lovely girl and the pair are almost sickly cute together....They remind me of Markum and myself.

"I am happy to report that his little announcement went over well with his family. They were a bit shocked but at the end of the day just wanted him to be happy. There were moments in the past that I wished I could have been the women that he needed, but he needed Narya. She complements him in ways that I always new that I didn't.

"Anyways, I got to know Narya very well the last few weeks I was on Betazed. After the announcement of Lestian's wedding my mother lost her mind and I guess the phrase would be disowned...me. She wants nothing to do with me or with my child. She never wants to me Markum and has blocked all channels for me to communicate with her or my father. Lestian and Narya were very kind and allowed me to stay with them until I could secure an assignment and passage with the Science Corp.

"I can't say that I am surprise. She has always been a bit...dramatic. I am sure that she will come around.

"The only reason that I can't share this with anyone it Markum. I don't want him to find out until he has met out child. Until he can see how happy he makes me. I never want him thinking that I lost anything when I found him.

"The fact that Markum has never met Diviana Barel is a real shame. If he had he would know how much of a fleeting reaction this will be. That is not to say that it won't be long lived. I am assuming by the time the baby is born and Markum and I are married she will come around at most a few years. If not....

"Well, I guess that is everything. I needed to share my secret with someone even if it is just a computer system. Perfect timing, Markum has just arrived home and I plan on greeting him.

"Computer end log"

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