- Assistant Chief Counselor/Medical Officer's Log #14 - "Suicide Mission?"

Posted on 30 Aug 2013 @ 9:56pm by Lieutenant JG Delainey Carlisle

410 words; about a 2 minute read

I'm exhausted. Between treating the injured Venture crew medically, and then sitting vigil with some attending to their emotional wounds, I am physically and psychologically spent. Still,, it's a good sort of tired. After seeing the remnants of the Venture floating coldly in space, I wasn't sure anything would ease the sense of shock and helplessness we all felt. Then the wounded starting pouring in. I get no pleasure from seeing such suffering, of course, but on a selfish level, I was grateful to have something productive to do, something that would have an immediate impact on a situation that has yet to make any sense.

I didn't have much time to think about it before now, but I shudder to think the Borg found on our Away Team foreshadowed where we are now. Looking back, I desperately wanted that particular discovery to mean absolutely nothing, but in my heart of hearts, I knew better. Now, it's up to me and the rest of the crew to keep a riot from breaking out all so we can attempt what very well may amount to a suicide mission. I accept that if it means the rescue of fellow Starfleet Officers, but I have to wonder if we'll ever get that far. Sooner or later, the surviving Venture crew will know something's up, and once the truth comes out, what will that lost trust cost us? What will it cost them?

I also can't help but think what will happen to the crew we do rescue, provided we can. As a healer, I understand and wish for every effort to be made to recover and rehabilitate any assimilated or partially assimilated crew we find, but I also know nothing will completely erase what they've been through. I'm not looking forward to answering questions from the severely traumatized who may come to believe they were better off dead. The hopeful therapist in me wants to believe people can move past those feelings, but a part of me would feel guilty for presuming what kind of quality of life is worth it.

On the considerably less dreary side, I really like the new CMO, and we seem to work well together. I feel for Kohl and can empathize with the brass playing musical positions without so much as a peep, but if I know Andreus, he will take it in stride. I miss my friend. One of these days, we need to do lunch.

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