Personal Log 006

Posted on 02 Feb 2013 @ 7:55pm by Lieutenant Commander Pola Ni Dhuinn M.D.

441 words; about a 2 minute read

*sounds of shuffling noises and the tussling of sheets before there is a moment or two of silence*

Well...I think it's been awhile since I've managed to record one of these, since I've had the will or the want to complete it.

Where do you start?

I think this shore leave benefitted me more than I could have imagined. Not being onboard from the day the crew was created had been difficult to start with, even though I was only four days behind the feeling was still there that I was somewhat of an outsider, it was difficult to make friends.

And now....

*slight pause as the sound of sheets rustling is picked up by the computer*

Well now everything seems to be happening at once. First there was Cyrus...I still find it difficult to believe that mere weeks ago, we didn't even know that the other existed. Over the last few weeks, within the time we've spent together, I find myself developing feelings for him which I wouldn't have ever thought possible. When something good or bad happens I find that he's the one I want go contact first, to share my life with him. It all feels too quick, so much so soon but...I guess we will have to see where it goes.

Then there's Lilou. How different she seems to be from that woman from the first medical...I still remember how scared she seemed, how she'd leave herself hurt and injured before she'd visit sickbay for help. How far she has come...she's abit like me in a sense I guess. Promoted to a chief out of the blue, both of us still so young.

I got to see a new side of the engineer though, she came to my office to ask..well I guess to ask for help. She trusted me to answer which questions which seemed to deeply trouble her and I hope that perhaps she will now be able to start moving on, perhaps we've even scratched the surface of a friendship.

*silence descends for a moment before being broken by the sound of a big yawn*

Man....I'm tired...

I guess I'll leave off by telling you about Dawn. She seems like a nice woman...I can't help feeling that there's a certain vulnerability there which she tried to cover over but sometimes allowed to slip through. I like her though...maybe I will run into her again at some point outside of either of our duties.

*a further silence descends before being broken by a longer yawn*

Ok...good night log. It's time for me to pass out.

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