Reunion Final Chapter

Posted on 16 Mar 2025 @ 11:46am by Lieutenant JG Serran

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One year before Serran's arrival

Previously in Chapter Two

I got up then and walked out. "But you did hurt me. On purpose and more than once. I don't need you to pretend to be sorry when we both know you're not."

That's what I did in my head. What I actually did though was just sit there and nod. Then I said, "I know."

"You don't know," he said as he leaned toward me, but this should help you remember the good times we had."

Then, without invitation, he kissed me.

Now the continuation

This wasn't just a casual peck on the cheek or gesture of friendship found in some cultures. It wasn't that kind of kiss at all.

Whatever Finn’s faults are, doing things halfway is not one of them.

All logical thoughts departed my mind, and the control over my mind evaporated instantly.

Finn knew how I felt about kissing. What it meant to me, that I considered it more intimate than intercourse and almost as pleasurable.

Finn was right about one thing: It did bring back memories—memories of what should have been better times. Like the first time we kissed. It was sweet, awkward, innocent, almost innocent, anyway.

Or all the times such a kiss elicited forgiveness and ignited the most mind-blowing make up sex.

It had worked so many times whether he initiated one, or I had.

That was exactly what Finn intended. His motives in the moment might have been virtuous and without guile.

Possibly.

To be fair that kiss did spark some of those memories he wanted to spark, I had known and loved him for so long.

But it did trigger other memories. My catching him sandwiched between two other men in the bed that he was only supposed to share with me. Him hitting me more than once because they knew I was a pacifist and wouldn’t hit him back, especially because I loved him. The countless arguments between us. Some started by him, some started by me. Arguments that never ended well for either of us

I’m not sure how long we sat there, our lips pressed together, or when he deepened the kiss( and despite myself I allowed it and even participated)when our tongues entwined with each other. But all those thoughts ran through my mind in that span of time.

Finally, Finn broke the kiss. I wasn’t sure how to feel about that.

“I still love you, you know,” he whispered, literally in my ear.


My hand came up between us and I pushed him a foot or so away/

“Stop,” I said, just stop. This isn't going to work.”

“What's not going to work?” He asked, his voice pleading, “What do you think I'm trying to do?”

I slowly exhaled before I replied, “You may not even realize it, but you’re falling into the same pattern you always do.”

“What pattern is that?” He asked, his tone shifting.

“That pattern, that one right there. You kiss me knowing how I feel about that, then you tell me you love me.”

“You try to draw me in, but I know you're just going to pull the rug out from me “

“Serran, please. I came here to give you some closure, to give us some closure. I really did. To let you know I have changed, and that I am sorry for what I did to you. But seeing you sitting there, reminded me of all the good times we had. That’s why I kissed you, I wasn’t, I’m not trying to pull you into anything.”

“I thought maybe coming here was wrong, maybe even contacting you was wrong, or at the very least, a bad idea.”

“But seeing you, made me realize that I still love you. You make me a better man, or at least you motivate me to try to be a better man. I should never have divorced you, I should never said some of the horrible things I did. Or cheat on you. Or hit you. Or any of the other bad stuff.”

“But, I’ve changed. I really have. I don’t expect you to believe me. Hell, I’m not sure if I believe me, but it’s true.”

“Let me prove it to you. give me a chance. Please. I know you still love me. Let me take you and Theo out to dinner. I want to meet him.”

“I do still love you,” I said softly. I will always love you. I don’t know if I’ll ever find someone I could love the way I loved you.”

I saw the glimmer of hope spark in his eyes and it crushed me knowing I was about to ruin that hope once and for all.

“But Finn and it’s a big, but while I will always love you and wish we could recreate what we once had.”I am no longer in love with you.”

“I’m sorry Finn, I really am.”

Then, I did the hardest thing I’ve ever done in my life. I stood up and started walking toward the exit.”

“Serran, Serran, come back. Please. What are you doing?


“I’m protecting me and my son.”

Then, kept walking and didn’t look back.

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