Solving Problems in a Distinctly Naime Sort of Way

Posted on 29 Aug 2024 @ 11:18pm by Chief Petty Officer Afthinam Naime

424 words; about a 2 minute read

Computer, Let's begin a personal log.

You know a couple of months ago when I joined this ship all they had working in Engineering were Donald and John. Not saying they were bad but then we bring in me and Hel and Amul and things were good. It felt good to have this little rabble to work with and-

Look what I'm trying to get to is that I really enjoyed it. I liked being a voice at the senior staff meetings, I enjoyed doing stuff like attending that Klingon banquet. Admittedly the banquet did not go well and me being at those meetings did not stop Captain Tarin from pushing the engines so hard that we broke them in multiple profound ways. This is a small ship, not the same as Laguerre or Trial. I felt some real ownership of what we were doing here, I felt a bit respected. It was my ship, I was it's engineer, the one who controls the engines. The ship didn't have a voice, but it had me. I was like its advocate and responsible for it's wellbeing.

Things are different now. Hel is gone, Locksley too. Of us that were on Trial its just me and Amanda left. I don't blame them for leaving, after what happened with that pilot I'd probably have left too. Then of course we had Lieutenant Fynn and now we have Ensign Sera. She's a good sort, I like her but it's her ship now.

So what's left? What am I still doing here? Nothing else mattered after Latari, just that we were trying to stick together, trying to look out for each other. Hel and Locksley don't need me any more, they're making their own way. Sera is a decent leader, the ship doesn't need me the way it did when I first showed up.

I looked into some of the avenues. It's be nice to get back to the halls of power, back to the responsibilities I had. I'm not sure I'm exactly officer candidate material though.

I don't know what I'm doing. Perhaps I should speak to that one Toren Vral, get some perspective on my career. Or maybe I just need a drink.

Okay, yeah, one drink isn't enough for this problem. This is definitely a case of a several drink problem. Going to be quite computationally difficult.

You know, I think I've successfully talked myself into the solution. Computer, we can end the personal log now.

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