That Fuzzy Feeling

Posted on 14 May 2024 @ 7:43am by Lieutenant JG Saelihn Valenis

378 words; about a 2 minute read

Computer, open personal log.

[Log opens]

It's been difficult these past few days. I don't think people understand how much a time shift can affect my people. It feels like a little scratch in the back of your mind you can't get to no matter how much you rattle your brain or poke it with a finger.

My medication is helping as I have been blessed with a hyper sensitivity to the changing of time, and the forces that can alter the universe and sometimes I pray to the Gods that they take it away so I can not have to live in fear of a super migraine hitting me like I know they can.

If I skipped a days dose then I would be laid up in bed with the biggest headache in the known quadrant and that would be no joke. Time is no joke, and messing about with it even more so.

Admiral Saalm, a woman I've never met, wants to alter the way her past has played out. Save the Federation, Starfleet and all the lives lost during their war and I get that. It is truly a horrible thing to have lived through. My people have lost a world and I know there are those that still feel its loss even over 100 years on.

However, does that feeling of loss and the want to change this supersede the lives that would change if the timeline was altered. People born, relationships forged, worlds grown?

If the Grand Council (on Kaitos) had more involvement in the galactic say of things they would have a field day but still they hide behind their dimensional cloak afraid of being seen at the cost of being forgotten. Elders can suck at times.

I've been stepping up for Lieutenant Rice in her absence... or is it not PC to say her AWOL? I didn't know her well as I only just came on board from Regula 1 but still to defect in such a way would ripple through any ship.

I'll try my hardest as I always do, but this nagging in my brain is not helping.

Tomorrow is another day in a galaxy that feels wrong, in a space we are out of place.

Computer, end log.

[Log closes]

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