Counselor's Log 4

Posted on 30 Jul 2023 @ 3:05pm by Lieutenant JG Karras

309 words; about a 2 minute read

Chief Counselor's Log, Stardate 69347.8

We are on our way back to Regula I after our mission to Cold Station 31. Much like in my last log, I don't know exactly what I can and cannot say about what we... experienced. It wasn't like anything I would have imagined. It was...

It was more than enough for me. At least for now.

I've requested a transfer from Galileo to the station. I know I wanted to get out into the unknown and see what was out there, but I think I've seen all I need to see. I will still be available to the crew as counselor, I'll just be settled into more of a support role. One that hopefully won't be on the front lines of anything.

Does this make me a coward? I don't know. I'd like to think I behaved appropriately. Is it fear making me want to step back, or anger? Once again, Federation secrecy created a situation that... that could have been avoided. Once again, there have been lives lost, needlessly...

I wonder if these means I'm done with Starfleet? I honestly don't know. I want to believe in its ideals, but for the second time in my life, I've seen the fleet's sinister underbelly. Am I so naive to expect the Federation to be entirely free of covert operations and clandestine experiments? Should it even be considered naive to expect an organization to hold to its core values?

I don't have any answers. Perhaps the routine on Regula-I will provide me the time needed to reflect and see if I still wish to serve, or if I should resign my commission and go home. That simple way of life seems even more precious to me than it did just a few short days ago. I suppose only time will tell.

Computer, end log.

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